The grass is always greener

Sometimes I look around at the choices I've made and I am very proud of myself. I have 25 years old now (ick that seems SO old) I have a wonderful house that we built from the ground up deciding on everything from the color of the outside to the design of the carpet on the inside. I know I wouldn't have these many nice things if I didn't work so hard for them. I would not have a nice house, with two nice and reliable cars, clothes in the closet a new TV, nice jewelry etc. had I taken the easy road after high school. An education and career just felt in so many ways like the next step. I graduated and this is what is supposed to come next in life.

But then there are those other times where I think, 'I work so hard and all I really want to do is stay home and build a family.' I truly envy those who get to sit at home and do the things on a daily basis that they actually want to be doing all the time. How great it would be to wake up one morning and decide I want to spend the day in bed, or go to an afternoon movie, or heck meet my husband for lunch. Or do crafts, and spend time with close friends and family. My job is important because in some ways I do have the best of both worlds you could say. I have that time during the year where I am kept busy and have things to grow professionally with; at the same time I have those summers where I can lay by the pool one day and soak up the sun with a good book and my Ipod by my side.

I found out today that in order to keep your teaching license you have to teach a certain number of hours every two years and give those hours to the department of ed. This really urkes my plans. I don't mind teaching, but there has always been apart of me that wishes one day to stay at home with my kids for a couple of years and not worry about lesson plans, PD, school, grades, 301 money, IEP's, test scores, reading levels, difficult children the list goes on and on believe me. And now, come to find out that in order to save myself the trouble of not having to become re certified (because we all know how much fun that process is) I have to continue to teach X amount of hours per year. Blah. If I ever really sat home though, I know myself I would be bored and lonely...

The grass IS always greener...