'bout time

It's about time! About time for my life to get back on track and get my family back together! Michael and I knew in the beginning of this journey that the road we decided to take would lead us in different directions for awhile. But we also knew that it would only be temporary and oh my goodness am I ready for this to become a thing of the past! Don't get me wrong, it's actually been pretty nice being around our family for the past 3 months but it's high time we get back to us. Back to our our relationship and way of doing things, and back to home...

Ya know I'm a worrier, really I am. I worry all the time about random stupid things, but you know what I worry most about? I worry about Karson and how he will adjust. I worry about going up to Wickenburg after I've been at my moms for awhile because I worry about all the animals up there or what I'm going to do to occupy my time because lets face it no one wants to have baby patrol 24/7. But every time I make it up there...things just have a way of working themselves out. Weird. Anddd...I worry after being in Wicki for awhile about coming back to my moms... Karson doesn't have his crib there, he's so comfortable in Wicki, there isn't as much structure at my moms because we're always out running around. Blah, blah, blah. And ya know what? I get here, and my mom steps up to the plate in more ways than I ever could have imagined and guess what Karson is FINE, he's more than fine he enjoys spending time with both sets of grandparents. How incredibly blessed and loved my little man is by so many people it's amazing.

Now I worry about going to Biloxi, what if I get homesick, what if Karson doesn't do as well, what I'm alone with the baby ALL the time... I know this isn't going to be back to NORMAL for us yet, I know this is a stepping stone for Michael and I but that's it, I'm DONE. I am determined to make the best out of this situation and rock the hell out of Mississippi. Talk about sucking the marrow out of life, you betcha! That's going to be me for the next 3 months I will not sit around that apartment and wait... Karson and I will explore! And make new friends and find new thing to do, like baby gymboree and go have lunch at the beach because guess what? We CAN, holla! And when Michael is home it's going to be even better, but when he's not I will not stop living.

Rachel Ray better watch her back, this momma is A'COMIN!


And it's about dang time!