Reconnect

I have reconnected! Finally I have MY life back again in more ways than one and I feel I have reconnected to the world!

We made it to Biloxi! Pictures to follow I promise. It feels weird being in a totally new part of the country, people move so S L O W L Y over here. Talking, driving, walking, anything and everything they do they do it like they have all day to get it done. It's a totally different way of life, and a little nice to sorta slow down sometimes and enjoy the sunshine, but also irritating when you go out to eat and it literally takes the server a good 5 minutes to bring you back the knife you asked for. I'm sure this town was much more before the hurricane but in all honest it's not bad now...the weather has been sorta rainy and chilly but I love how close everything is to the water. I've heard the water isn't the nicest though because we're surrounded by the land so it never gets a chance to circulate and bring in the new tide, but it's been so chilly I haven't really noticed. Although, the cable guy came in today and turned on our TV and internet for the apartment here and told me about a place thats about an hour away that has really nice beaches and stuff. So that's a trip to go see and do.

I feel like I'm finally starting to get my life back again. I had forgotten how much I missed doing things my own way and in my own space. It's funny how much you can adapt when things change. Life was different in every aspect when Michael left and we adapted and changed and made the best of the situation we were handed, but now that our life in getting back on track I realize how much I truly missed US. It's so great to have Michael back around again, and I don't care if it's only a few hours at night during the week and weekends (which it is at this point) it's better than only hearing from him a few times a day over the phone or not at all. I'll take it, I'll take all of it and be grateful.

Write more later, little man awaits. I hear him calling his mama from the other room in his bed, moving around playing, talking, getting a little frustrated because he's probably stuck on his belly again and can't find his fephy. Awww...little love of mine :)

'bout time

It's about time! About time for my life to get back on track and get my family back together! Michael and I knew in the beginning of this journey that the road we decided to take would lead us in different directions for awhile. But we also knew that it would only be temporary and oh my goodness am I ready for this to become a thing of the past! Don't get me wrong, it's actually been pretty nice being around our family for the past 3 months but it's high time we get back to us. Back to our our relationship and way of doing things, and back to home...

Ya know I'm a worrier, really I am. I worry all the time about random stupid things, but you know what I worry most about? I worry about Karson and how he will adjust. I worry about going up to Wickenburg after I've been at my moms for awhile because I worry about all the animals up there or what I'm going to do to occupy my time because lets face it no one wants to have baby patrol 24/7. But every time I make it up there...things just have a way of working themselves out. Weird. Anddd...I worry after being in Wicki for awhile about coming back to my moms... Karson doesn't have his crib there, he's so comfortable in Wicki, there isn't as much structure at my moms because we're always out running around. Blah, blah, blah. And ya know what? I get here, and my mom steps up to the plate in more ways than I ever could have imagined and guess what Karson is FINE, he's more than fine he enjoys spending time with both sets of grandparents. How incredibly blessed and loved my little man is by so many people it's amazing.

Now I worry about going to Biloxi, what if I get homesick, what if Karson doesn't do as well, what I'm alone with the baby ALL the time... I know this isn't going to be back to NORMAL for us yet, I know this is a stepping stone for Michael and I but that's it, I'm DONE. I am determined to make the best out of this situation and rock the hell out of Mississippi. Talk about sucking the marrow out of life, you betcha! That's going to be me for the next 3 months I will not sit around that apartment and wait... Karson and I will explore! And make new friends and find new thing to do, like baby gymboree and go have lunch at the beach because guess what? We CAN, holla! And when Michael is home it's going to be even better, but when he's not I will not stop living.

Rachel Ray better watch her back, this momma is A'COMIN!


And it's about dang time!